Letters to God #14 by Dana

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Hi everyone.   It’s been a while!  Here is another “Letter to God” from Dana.  Dana has written several “letters to God” – you can see them here.  Blessings,  Jodi

My dearest God,

Strange to think where I’ve ended up and how I’m not at all too surprised, because even from the beginning I’ve always felt lost, like I never really belonged anywhere.  I unknowingly felt empty, hoping to absorb some sense of who and what I was, never really quite sure of my place, not only in my family but also here on earth.  I’ve never really known myself, just bits and pieces which made it easy to pretend.

Letters to God #13 by Dana – Dinner With The Devil

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Dana has written several “letters to God” – you can see them here.

Dear God,

Thank you for this day and every other day You have been gracious enough to give me.  Thank You for getting me through this difficult season of missing my family and children.  “Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who comforts us in all our affliction.”  (2 Corinthians 3:4)

Lord, lately I’m confused as to who I am, who I’m supposed to be and who I want to be.  Am I the addicted criminal deemed a danger to society, or the lost daughter, sister, mother and friend from a day so long ago I can’t remember?  Am I inmate number xx-xxxxx facing a total of 43 years, turned Christian, who is trying to survive this cold place or am I a combination of all three; just looking for answers and trying to have faith that God will make sense of it all?  Lately I feel not only disconnected from You my God, but also from myself.

Letters to God #12 – The Light in the Dark by Dana

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Dana has written several “letters to God” – you can see them here.

Dear God,

I want to thank You for this day.  Another day alive, happy and full of the Holy Spirit.  I’m sorry that I haven’t written in a while, but I’ve felt like I haven’t been able to feel Your presence lately, and that has made me lonelier than I ever would have imagined, and also quietly sad inside.  Sometimes I sit down to write and the words come pouring out of me like some sort of ocean tidal wave washing over the shores.  But lately when I sit down to write, I stare at the blank page with all its plain void and it reminds me of my once spiritually depleted life.  So instead of touching the pen down to paper to try to release my written therapy for my once beaten and abused soul, I run and abandon the lonely lifeless sheet like I handled every other uncomfortable or bad situation in my past.  But I’m writing You now, my Lord, because I wanted to reconnect. 

Letters to God #11 – Collision Into A Beautiful Life by Dana

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Dana has written several “letters to God” – you can see them here.

Dear God,

Hello my Lord.  Thank You for this day.  Thank You for the life You’ve given me and thank You for the second chance I’ve been lucky enough to get.  For now my days are long with laughter, rather than short with burden, warm with friendship and faith rather than cold with pain and drug-induced despair.  Lord, thank You for letting me embrace each day with the glory of Your Word and for letting me grow in Your wondrous faith.  Praise God!

But my dearest Lord, lately I feel like I’m in a rut.  Like I’m stuck between who I used to be and who You desire me to be, which is whom I want to be. 

Letters to God #10 by Dana – “Forgiveness for 4 counts of attempted murder”

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Dana has written several “letters to God” – you can see them here. 

Dear God,

Thank you for another beautiful day in such an ugly place.  How ironic that I had to come to the “concrete jungle” of chaos and noise to find joy and inner peace.  Because it’s true, O Lord, I’m happier than I’ve been in a long while in one of the most unhappy places on earth.  For I laugh more than I have in years.  I smile almost constantly, and I wake up without guilt or sadness from the turmoil of my once lethal life.  Don’t misunderstand me Lord Jesus.  I know why I’m here and I haven’t forgotten my journey or just how many miles I need to go on my road trip to eternal life.  I just mean that finding You, the peace of the Holy Spirit, and accepting You as my Lord and Savior has done wonders for my soul and has made it easier to enjoy the simple things, see the big things and know what’s important.  So even though I’m fully aware that I’m incarcerated facing 40+ years, housed with other women deemed dangers to society just like me, I can appreciate that I’m happily sober, relieved to be safe and alive and sometimes overwhelmed with the beauty of Your love and enduring forgiveness for sinners like me.  So as my pod-mate says, “Lord, you really do have a sense of humor, and You work in mysterious ways.”  Praise God!

Letters to God #9 by Dana – “Winner At Losing”

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Dana has written several “letters to God” – you can see them here.

Dear God,

Lord, first and foremost I want to thank You for this day.  Lord, the last few days have been a little trialsome, but I’ve learned to appreciate the hardships regardless of how painful, due to the knowledge of Your wondrous Word that You continue to bless me with.  For I’ve learned that as long as I continue to have faith in You O Lord, that You will answer my prayers and never give me more than I can carry.  As it tells me in Matthew 24:13, “But the one who endures to the end, he shall be saved.”  So praise God that I continue to grow strong in faith and spirituality with each passing day.

Letters To God #7 – “Ointment for My Wounded Heart” by Dana

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A woman named Dana has been sharing her spiritual journey through a series of “Letters to God”.  You can find her first letter to God here.

December 2014

Dear God,

Lord, I still painfully walk through my days with so much baggage still attached that I don’t know how to shed.  It weighs me down and makes it hard for me to walk my spiritual path with a genuine and pure heart.  I pray that with the guidance from the Holy Spirit and the help and counsel of spiritual mentors this will lead me to break these chains of sin and free me from my pain.

Letters to God #8 – “My Inception” by Dana

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A woman named Dana has been sharing her spiritual journey through a series of “Letters to God”.  You can find her first letter to God here.

December 14, 2014

Dear God,

Hello my Lord.  Thank You for this day.  I can’t help but notice that Christmas Day is closing in and I have to admit that the closer it gets the more depressed I feel.  But please let me explain, although I’m happy and filled with the Holy Spirit.  With the birth of my Lord and Savior drawing near, I’m disappointed that I’m going to miss my infant son’s first Christmas morning as well as his first birthday two days after Christ’s birth.  I’m sad that the choices I made have taken this season of “firsts” away from me.

Letter to God #6 – A Death Un-mourned by Dana

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This is Dana’s sixth “Letter to God”.  What a privilege to read these intimate letters to God.  I am blessed that she is willing to share these with me, and allow them to be on the blog.  Here is her first letter, second letter, third letter, fourth letter, and fifth letter.

12/4/14

Dear God,

I thank You for this day, even though we both know that its been a very tiresome and trying day for me so far.  But I’m determined to stay confident that today will end with everything You want it to be for me, for I will “cast all my anxiety upon Him because He cares for me” (1 Peter 5:7).  I know Lord that these hard days are necessary and there are plenty more in my future, because I’m aware that this change I am making, this spiritual journey in which I embark, is a process. 

Letter To God #5 – “I Am His Miracle” by Dana

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11/2014

Dear God,

Hello my sweet, merciful Lord.  Thank You for this day!  Lord, it’s so amazing to me how even though I wake up in here, the “concrete jungle”, every day, I don’t feel all the burdens of a new day as I once did, but rather I can’t wait to embrace all the blessings this new day has to offer.