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This is Dana’s fourth “Letter to God”.  What a privilege to read these intimate letters to God.  I am blessed that she is willing to share these with me, and allow them to be on the blog.  Here is her first lettersecond letter and third letter.

11/12/14

Dear God,

Well Lord, lately I have so much to be thankful for that I don’t even know where to begin.  But I will first start off by praising You for yet another day lived.  A day in which I’m sober, I’m healthy and I’m happy with the glory of the Holy Spirit in my heart.  I have a smile on my face and peace in my soul, both of which I’ve lacked for far too long and I’ve so desperately needed.  Thank You Jesus for bringing in all the ladies that come in our “Concrete Jungle” to minster to us, for their guidance is greatly needed, appreciated and comforting.  For they come in here unafraid, gentle and un-judging, and speak with such love and remind me I’m not just a number.  I’m more than the sum of my crimes, and that I too am a child of God and a woman of worth.  With their help dear Lord, I feel so blessed and so peaceful since they’ve shown me how to bend my ear and crack my heart to Your soothing Word.  Lord I no longer constantly feel heavy with loneliness or bogged down with despair.  Since I’ve offered all my struggles up to You O Lord and since I’ve accepted that I am not in control and that You and You alone are the pilot of my life (that I am merely the co-pilot with no license to drive because evidence has shown that I have made a mess of things on my own), I have felt a sense of over-all joy and I no longer feel the weight of burden on my shoulders.  Thank You Jesus for getting in the driver’s seat and taking on all my pain.  I know in return I need to pray, I need to learn Your Word and inscribe it on my heart, tongue and actions so to better live in Your likeness.

O Lord Jesus, I keep hearing about these “special” gifts that we’re all supposed to have, and that I’m supposed to have to honor You.  But quite honestly Lord, I have no clue what mine is or what it could even possibly be.  I must confess my Lord that the thought of no obvious gift saddens me.  I know that’s a silly thing to feel, but I just want to be able to have something to make You proud.  I know Lord that You will show me my true meaning all in due time.  When the time is right by Your standards.  For this, I will be patient my Lord, but please continue to send the Holy Spirit to guide me.

Lord Jesus, with You I know all things are possible and my faith in You and Your teachings are ever-growing.  It truly amazes me and comforts me how every day I continue to be blessed with the beauty that is You, my God!  That even though with each day my faith grows, I also bow humbly towards all the smaller things I had forgotten to notice.

In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

All my soul,

Dana